11:16 AM | Friday, October 27, 2006
how tough can it be,when i am not looking at you.
today had end-of-year service.sat at the hall,waiting for time past by.but i like the songs,not bad i guess.mr chandra shows us a website,which really touches me.its all about failure,but give a reason to cheer you up,even though you failed.i think that,i had lots of failures this year.a lot of things,i failed.especially loving you.it failed so badly.but a year of hardship,sadness schooling for me has been officially over.but this year is seriously quick.very quick.i hope that next year would just be a little bit slower when i am having fun.then it will be a perfect year.it is a really a sad year for me,seriously.trainning was okay today also.i think i am happy with my goalie skills today.finally my legs are moving,and i dived.so yeah,hope that i really can be better on saturday.the actual day of the trial.damn from thursday changed to friday,then friday changed to saturday.lameshit,nevermind,as long as there is trial,then it will be good.i shalln't grumble on it.holiday tomorrow.don't know should do what.hmm..ask jerome later.forgetting you is seriously tough since i love you so much and so long.but yeah,there goes my luck again.lousy luck la.don't have good luck.today i just wanted to avoid you,but i can't stop myself of looking at you.but i don't know why i just can't stop looking at you.only when i walk past you,i would beng my head down.to avoid looking at you.but when you are not noticing that time,i just looked at you.i can't stop myself,why did you choose him?hais.its always ends off as a sad story.):Authentic.